kimb (silent b)

so i hate to say this but i am beginning to resent fashion. dont get me wrong i love fashion, i love dressing up in silly little outfits and running around town. but the thing is retail is so difficult. marketing to the masses that dont really understand fashion. they understand what the american idols are wearing on tv, not so much the ridiculous but genius prints of jeremy scott and the like. the head designer here went to school with jeremy scott but is stuck creating slinky garments for women afraid to experiment with anything more than florals and animal prints. we are in paisley mode here and its killing me. ive always been envious of the graphic designers, in their sleek offices with their pool tables and pinball machines, espresso machines and mac computers. the majority of employees are not all women and they seem to be all good natured from what ive seen. im not calling my coworkers ill mannered but they are all women with tempers and periods. i talk to my old room mate and he mentions his friday afternoon happy hours at work, how his design firm is not suffereing and how they actually hired a new designer. we fired 15. i still dream of designing my own childrenswear line but finances are slim. the economy is a boa constrictor slowly squeezing the life out of us. and the bf is out of a job, his show went on a hiatus and when he started freelancing at a new show they closed all of thier ny offices- ny rent is too high especially in times sq. so whats a girl to do? i have no coping strategies for this recession or depression as it is newly named. all i can do is stay stagnent until some opportunity peeks its little golden head over the clouds.